Sleep Apnea

I woke to a very scary feeling just a little while ago.

I laid down with my 5 year old daughter so that she could fall asleep. I woke a few hours later with the feeling that I was gasping for air and struggling to breath. I was scared to death about what had happened and scared about what could have happened had I really stopped breathing.

I was diagnosed with sleep apnea approximately 8 years ago. In the past, when I have fallen asleep, I have been told that I would momentarily stop breathing. Well tonight I totally experienced it. I am still shaking thinking about it. My chest hurts and I am afraid to lay back down to try to go to sleep, I know I will wear my mask for sure.

I will make sure from now on to wear my mask, but tonight will be in the back of mind.

Just When I Thought ...

Just when I thought things were going to go a particular way, suddenly things changed and hopefully for the better.

I was already to begin training for a new career that was stopped due to a minor issue, not really anything I did at all. However just when that door shut there are possibilities that I can continue this but in a different way that will provide me with many more options.

Right now I am having to fill out paperwork and wait, hopefully that wait will not be long. There are other things that I have filled out paperwork that I have to wait on. Waiting on things are tough for me because I need to stay on top of these requests so that I am not lost in the system.

I came home yesterday very positive at the possibility of more opportunities in this pursuit of a new career.

Expecting more answers from God.

As I Grow Older (More Mature)

As I grow older so many things in my life have changed. Some changes were for the good, but some changes were for the not so good. In all I have learned many lessons. Am I going to make the right decisions moving forward, I doubt it, but I can do the best I can do and keep my eyes focused on God.

One of the many blessings in my life has been being a Dad. As a teenager I would never even had a thought of having children, but I met a very special woman who changed my mind. This woman would later become my wife. With her we brought two children into our family. At the time I did not fully appreciate the blessing that the children were to my life, but as many lessons in life I have grown to see that those children were suppose to be in my life.

Today I consider all three of my children to be my most valued possessions, I really don't know what I would do without them. As I have taught them many things through the years they have also taught me. At this time all three of my children are at different stages in life and do my best to be the Dad each of them needs at those stages. My children are a 14 year old girl, a 13 year old son, and a 5 year old girl.

In these current days and the days to come there have been and will be many changes in my life thus causing changes in their lives. I hope they understand that everything I do is focused around giving them the best.